Mothers love is beyond

I was born in a village, I had abundant love from my mother, father, grandmother, grandfather, and brother from all relatives, they adore my playfulness, they like my small funs which I make with them, slowly the amount of love reduced from me, I am reduced to express them with others, only with my mother expression of love keep continued, she was with me as I grow, she was sharing her love to me as well, I went to college, it happens that I was fall in love with the lady, but that lady doesn't aware I am in love with her and I didn't say to her as well. That suppression created more trauma in me that love busted in me I was psychologically I'll at some point, it was a very sad moment in my life almost a decade that trauma didn't leave.

What I understand from this point is an expression of love which you carry should be done, suppression creates pain and rejecting her, is not the problem, you should accept you have been rejected by them, then you can flow like a river there is no blockage in you.

Another pattern I observe in my life, my mother is close to me, and my wife rejected me, my son is growing up with my wife. My mother's love is nourishing me. Her blessing makes me drive my life.

And situation happened when I started worshiping goddesses I pray to her like my supreme mother I feel I am getting blessings from her.

I came from my mother's womb with love and I get the blessing from the Supreme mother she always resides in my divine womb.

I see a greater connection with my mother and supreme mother, their love is driving me, many times I feel low, I feel I don't have anybody to care about, but I feel my mother is the only person who cares personally and spiritually. We are humans we need some people to get support from, mother is greater power to me whom I can rely on.