Journey of my Knowing

How to find the inner peace? The very critical question, did anyone asked to yourself? How to find the inner peace? This a small attempt from my side to attain inner peace! I was reading Jidhu Krishna Murthy's books and Osho's books As I start reading the books I came across a few words Desire, Comparison, Search, Identity, Awareness and Die to the past. These important words have a significant impact on inner peace, but how? This is what I understood and tried to explain to you all. Now we talk about No Desire, what if we don't have the desire, how do our lives change, we don't have to wear white robes to talk about this but it is important to stay without having negative desires at least, I am desired for a car then I will be in a position to start working for the money because I desire for the car, now we have a question, having a desire for the car is wrong?  Not absolutely, we can desire for our food, shelter, clothes and basic need for our life. Too much desire cr...

 Father  i need to poop😃,I am driving my car, wait i will find the right place for you, he said no i will go in western toilet🤔, no it is not possible we are nearing to forest. Ok fine i will manage, i was calm, then we reached thada forest, we parked the car and started trekking, it is the first trekking with my son, starting he was feeling super cool, it is jus normal road! Nishit said, he was curious to know what next, i cannot control his excitement and trekking experience, he walked 20 minutes he started feeling the heat and he saw many terrains coming towards him. Slowly i was able to fulfill his expectations, now he want to poop😂, but don't know, he never experienced pooping in forest😉, then i created real story, in the school camp you have to experience pooping like this😎  He pooped in to the forest finally, he was able to walk with me, but endurance is missing with Nishit, he became tired easily, even though he is sportsman he doesn't know to sustain the ene...

  As I do my morning walk, i hear song of heart, only i can listen, nobody can hear to that song. As I listen to the song, makes me to feel good. Because the song is good. Heart loves me so much, Heart cares me so much. It gives me happiness by repeating the song. Do you hear the song in your heart? How do you feel while heart is singing to you? “When the tongue is silent, the mind speaks; When the mind is silent, the heart sings; When the heart stops singing, the Soul begins to experience its original Self.” This quote from the unknown makes me to feel, many experience the song in the heart as i experienced. Do you experience song in your heart?

It is been almost 20 years, and I have been impacted by mental health. I want to see back how I was as a human, and how I have evolved now. Lots of improvement in my mental health. Able to communicate, understand well, and respond well. I met Mary in college, I was in love with her, she was a silent and calm person, I am in love with her I don't know to express my love.  Every day I come to college by cycle, and she walks opposite me in the corridor I see the beauty in her, even though she has the glance, I believe that she is in love with me. 3rd year of my college, there was a cricket match with college department teams, I was bowling the first over everyone is making fun of me, and criticizing my bowling, I make more wide balls, fortunately, I bowled well everyone appreciated my bowling. I assumed Mary could have been aware of superb bowling in the matches she saw me with a big smile today, and my assumption about love between us increased more. Completed 3rd-year ex...

Have you hugged your child?, your wife?, or your mother?, How much do you feel love in that hug? When a playing child fell and got severely injured mother will bring the child close to her and hugs them, and the child immediately stops the cry and starts playing.  The love between partners when they miss each other when they meet after a long time hug between them shows how much they missed in their life.  Why the hug is so powerful and natural? If The man was missing the hug with his child and partner for a long time. He was longing for a long time he was not able to express it, he remembers while others hug their partners and child.  Sometimes he has a mother to hug. He felt so precious when he hugs his mother. But he sees the difference between the hug,  Hugs between a mother, hugs between a child, and hugs between a partner, are huge differences and differences in love.  Differed from person to close one, person to a child, and person to friend....

Loneliness, I was left alone I don't know how to spend my time, sometimes I feel my loneliness is a curse, my age is 42, I was married, but I don't have the kid with me some time he talks to some time he is busy with his problem. My mother is innocent, she is living with me she has her problem in her life. How do I overcome the loneliness? It is a question many times I have; I used to write what I feel as I do now, I use to paint; sometimes I feel like arguing with my son and wife. I think they are the reason for my loneliness, I think they are not ready to live with me so I need to fight, I have asked for a divorce nothing is happening. It is their problem? Or my loneliness, am I not able to make friends? Or am I feeling scared to make friends, I lost around 40 lakhs for making new friends, and my old friend wanted me to invest in his company so I am not ready to. I am seeing many traps in front of me. and to spend time happily with so many problems I need to go th...

Today is Ganesh Chaturthi, it is a celebration in India, we keep Lord Vinayaga as a stone and worship them in our home, I love the lord Ganesha, somehow I become fond of the lord Ganesha, I worship daily also, my parents and elders said he is the first formation of God, from that in I believe to worship him. Many parts of the Indian country worship Ganesh.  My understanding of lord Ganesha, elephant face, and human form. The elephant is the most intelligent animal, the character is very calm, and loveable they live together as a family, and are very strong and kind animals. There is a story for how Ganesha is formed and if we google mostly we get the answer for them. What I feel is the form of Ganesha is most respected by everyone including me. If we get the character of the Elephant and the quality of the human then we are the most respected species on Earth, isn't it? Jai Ganesh Saranam...!